This in every way is a new kind of season. So much has changed and continues to do so. I've never been at a place where I'm looking so much to the past and thinking about my future at once. I have to be careful though because as a friend pointed out if my focus is predominantly on past events and my future then I can easily miss out on he present. Probably sounds strange, but I can't verbalize the changes I feel like I'm walking through. I'm so excited for this new season and there is a part of me that feels like there are defining moments around the corner, I don't know what that will look like, but I'm excited. I'll be starting my 4th semester of school, I've transfered from TLU in Seguin back to Austin to attend UT's School of Social Work. I just want to continue to be ready for everything that lies ahead, to be used, and to take advantage of everyday even in this time of preparation.
There is a struggle in my heart right now. I just returned almost 2 weeks ago from a 5 week trip to the wonderful
community of Wrangell in SE Alaska. I had the incredible privellage of not only getting time with 2 incredibly influencial people in my life, but having the opportunity to serve & connect in their church. Working in the office, connecting with people, serving at youth events, every moment was incredible. It reminded me of what I miss so much, serving in ministry, being apart of a team under the authority of a pastor with incredible heart and passion for people. I went and saw the need for people to be there, to lift the burden, to be a support and my heart broke when it was time to leave.
community of Wrangell in SE Alaska. I had the incredible privellage of not only getting time with 2 incredibly influencial people in my life, but having the opportunity to serve & connect in their church. Working in the office, connecting with people, serving at youth events, every moment was incredible. It reminded me of what I miss so much, serving in ministry, being apart of a team under the authority of a pastor with incredible heart and passion for people. I went and saw the need for people to be there, to lift the burden, to be a support and my heart broke when it was time to leave. That is the struggle of my heart because I know exactly where I'm supposed
to be right now & that is here in Austin, attending UT & finishing my degree so that I am better equipped to step into whatever it is God has for me (at this point I have no idea what that will look like for me). And yet there is a desire in my heart to serve in ministry like I got to do in Alaska, but that isn't what I'm supposed to be doing because it is a season again of preparation. A time where God is dealing with me, I'm being poured into & equipping myself thru education.
to be right now & that is here in Austin, attending UT & finishing my degree so that I am better equipped to step into whatever it is God has for me (at this point I have no idea what that will look like for me). And yet there is a desire in my heart to serve in ministry like I got to do in Alaska, but that isn't what I'm supposed to be doing because it is a season again of preparation. A time where God is dealing with me, I'm being poured into & equipping myself thru education. Its exciting and I have watched God transform and change me so much already and the lesson I am currently learning? The best really is yet to come. There is this awesome plan God has laid out for me, but its up to me to take hold of it and walk it out everyday in the small & big things! I've experienced incredible things, but there is more and that is where I am; learning from my past, living in the present and walking towards an exciting future.
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