What a week...

Really it has been a very interesting week. I guess with it being my forst round of exams and such, it has been quite the challenge. I had 2 major exams, another next week, am busy putting together my application for entrance to the SW major...just lots on my heart and mind. I took a math exam yesterday, it was a hard day...not sure where the disconnect was but I completely blanked...I was out of there frustrated and defeated. Seems to not be something to get upset about and maybe it wasn't but in the moment it is how I felt. Spent about 10 hours yesterday sudying for my microeconomics exam, it could have gone better, could have gone worse...we will see...I did get to see some of the Celebration interns doing outreach on campus...that was great, so excited for them and so proud of them....after class I went to work on what I was going to share at XA tonight, and when I went out to my car it was dead...I left the lights on this morning!!!! Ugh...oops, Mike came to help but couldnt find the jumper cables, but thankfully UT has Auto services so they came and got things going. Our leadership meeting was good...lots to think about, I need to make time for that...I feel caught in the middle, not sure how to explain that but just kinda how I feel. Looking forward to the weekend, just need to study and write the essay for the SW application. Things are good and moving forward, I choose to trust God despite what I feel!

And again...

I decided to start writing here. Let's see since my 1st post a year ago there have been lots that has happened. I made it through another year at school, I absolutely love being a student @ UT. If I'm going to be a student then this is where I want to be. Don't get me wrong, even though I know I'm right where I should be I still am looking forward to the day when I graduate nd move forward in whatever God has for me. Do I know what that looks like more now than a year ago? No not really. But that is ok, I'm praying God develops a dream in me and keeps preparing me through this time at UT. I'm excited to have an idea of how He will use me, I know where my heart is...

Since my last post I returned to Wrangell and I think more than last year I miss it still. What a great summer it was, I traveled up with the team from our XA and then I stayed for about 10 weeks all together. And in that time I completed the requirements for an internship that will count towards my BDP certification in youth and family. It was a great experience and it looks like things will line up so I can return and work next summer. In addition to my internship work it was wonderful getting to spend time there working at the church, with students and getting to work with Pastor Matt and Jen. I miss Wrangell and everyone there and am excited to return.

I don't know I've never had my heart divided before, just a few years ago everything and everyone I loved were in one place and it was easy to stay right there...since then things have changed and its weird to me how a place so far from where I've lived my whole life in Austin can feel like home...maybe its strange that I feel that way, but I honestly do. Who knows...

In my remaining time on the UT campus I want to be used. I want to be faithful and obedient...I sure feel like I'm missing something and wonder what else I could be doing. I want to have impact. I want to invest in others..I don't know...God is teaching me alot and I just want to continue to stretch and grow. We will see where the year will go..I just pray God continually develops a dream...develop and grow me!